Denied

"The way is shut..."

Have you ever tired something and been hit with a resounding "NO"?  The kind of "no" that not only stops you in your tracks, but sends you stumbling backwards no matter what angle you strike from?  Well, that's where I've been at these past months.  I was looking for an alternative path, something outside of Wicca that would satisfy a growing need inside myself, but it seems I took a wrong turn somewhere.  Instead of taking it slow I dove into a... darker ocean than the one I'd been swimming in and the sharks nearly ate me.  Every path holds complications, this I know, but I also know when someone is telling me that I'm not welcome.  So I backed off and am now at square one... again.  Where am I going?  Only more mistakes will tell.

Introductions

I've decided to leave Wicca behind for now.  My year and a day of exploration is done and I'm left feeling... unfulfilled?  Or better to say that I'm left with the feeling that I missed something.  There were moments, moments that I felt what I was looking for brush against me like a soft breeze, but before I could grasp what it was the moment was gone.  Some will say that means I'm on the right track and just need to keep at it or try harder, but I know that's not the case.  I'm uninspired, I'm still searching.  So now it's time for my go-to answer: research.  Time for lots of reading and pushing my boundaries beyond what I think I want.  I'll look at Traditional Witchcraft, spirit work, animism, Vodou, and whatever else I can find.  Let's dive in.